to my baby

hi baby boy. i know you are a boy because i dreamt of you the night before we were separated. sorry that we are not fated to be together. i think my body has been too weak to take care of you. losing you is the saddest thing that have ever happen to me. i remember another sister of yours is following you too... was she? if you 2 are still with me we shall see each other next year after Chinese New Year. You have no idea how much your grandpa and grandma wanted to see you. oh ya, and your sister too. i will never forget when the doc told me that you have come to me. Oh yes, the feeling is the warmest ever. it is just too sad that it doesn't last long. i know you papa is disappointed too.. i think i saw his tears yesterday. but we do understand that it is better this way than having you born unhealthy. now i have to take care of my body well. hopefully when time comes we will meet again. good bye.